Forgiveness
To err is human, to forgive divine
I'm sure you have heard this saying time and time again. I have,
but today I started thinking about it in a more-than-cursory manner. I
was hurt terribly by someone, recently, and it came out of the blue,
without warning and with no explanation. The question I ask myself is,
"Can I forgive this person?"
Then I starting thinking about
all the times *I* hurt someone. I have apologized for some of these
hurts. Some hurts I inflicted long ago and I just can't find those
people to apologize to them. For example, in fifth grade, there was
this girl I really really liked, but I made fun of her haircut once and
caused her to cry. I never said I was sorry, but to this day I surely
wish I could. Finally, there are some things I've done that I am just
to embarrassed about to apologize. This is my current area of work!
When you do get to apologize, it can lift a heavy burden. When I
was young, I was engaged but the engagement fell apart and my ex-fiancee
and I drifted apart. Years later, I did track her down to talk to her
about what happened. She started out by saying she was sorry she caused
the break-up. This was surprising to me since it was my selfishness and
my lack of appreciation for all that she offered that caused things to
go awry. So I assured her it wasn't her fault at all; I said I was sorry
for essentially driving her away. Sadly, she died from breast cancer a
year later, but I was so glad I got the chance to apologize for what had
happened. Soon after she died, I heard her call out my name, as if to
say it was OK, she had forgiven me.
As to this recent hurt,
I hope I get a chance to say all is forgiven. I know that I have
done many bad things; who am I to withhold forgiveness when I wish those
I have hurt in the past would forgive me?